Forgiveness is Worth the FREEDOM!

Forgiveness is a process that can take years, and it’s never finitely complete. Life flows on, and swirls of emotions continually emerge. Humans may have delineated linear time, but our inner-atmosphere begs to differ! Anything can trigger a deeply grooved memory. When my former husband and I seperated, I was shattered. For the first time, I worried whether God and I could attain forgiveness…

I prayed my A** off, non-stop, for four years before I finally had a dream in which I viewed him with unconditional compassion. I awoke and knew the foundation was in place. I’d never be a slave; not to that degree.

But, emotions are changeable by nature. They arise, mix with the current scenery, and everything looks different after they leave… and that’s the way it’s supposed to be. It took me 40 years to realize that my resistance to life’s infinite shades of grey had drained my esteem and filled me with doubt and the belief I was unlovable.

There are no neatly delineated rows of shoeboxes in which to store our memories and their accompanying emotions, but we humans are BUILT to withstand and LEARN from embodying all memories and emotions, all of the time. No matter whether they are fancied or real, contradictory, or taboo.

My near-death experience and merging with God viscerally demonstrated that all is One, of One, and thereby divinely perfect. Warts and all.